Today is a mellower day.  I am feeling very plain.  Not really lows and no highs.  My Etsy store has been having good success which makes me really happy.  It is one thing when you like something but when someone else likes it also it is pretty cool!  Well today I bring you neutral but pretty color that I have had for a long time.  I really like this color.  This is two coats.  Well I know I felt like talking yesterday but today I don’t at the moment.  So here are some spamming pictures of the polish.And just to throw you off I added some topcoat fun! Not the best picture of them all but there has been no sun shine.  Hopefully soon though.  Well till tomorrow.

Sometimes it feels like I am stuck between what people expect and what I am.  To show emotion or to hide it and continue on.  I am using this as my slight personal sounding board.  I was informed late last night that my Grandma passed away.  She is was a very sweet lady who spoke her mind and was always welcoming.  She welcomed me in even though I wasn’t blood related.  I remember when I was little, she would come down and visit and pick up me and my cousin and take us out to eat. Then we would go to a party supply store and we always would get some money to buy a few small fun things.  I always looked forward to spending time with her.  I know she was not feeling well lately.  Last time I talked to her she was in the hospital again.  I am happy she is better now and I realize that the pain I feel is because I am not looking at the situation in the right perspective, it is just hard to see it from another at the moment.  I only cried 7 times today which I think is pretty good all things considered.   I tried to call into work since I found out late and knew I would be a wreck in the morning.  I was told that it would be an inconvenience to try and find a sub and that it would be best if I just worked in the morning and I could have the next morning off.  The point was that this morning was going to be the worse… not 2-3 days from now.   I only cried 3 time while there.

I feel like it is surreal and doesn’t hit me unless I really think about it and then it is a little too much.  So do I just pull myself up and go on not showing emotion because it would be easier for those around me?   Or do I just let myself be me.  I am struggling somewhere in the middle.  Well I normally don’t use this as a emotion blog since not everyone wants to hear my thoughts.  But this is me… so take it or leave it.   This is the last picture I have with her.  It is from when I visited this last summer.  She was in rehab and not happy about it but doing well.  We sat for long visits and just talked.  It was nice.  I am glad she got to meet the hubby several times and see what a wonderful guy he is.   He is always supportive.  In my afternoon shift I learned that what I need as a person who is not too sypathatic and not to blunt.  One of the students asked me what was wrong and I told him my grandma died.  ”Didn’t your grandma just die?”  I told him my other one had last fall.  He then went into talking about how coffins are expensive.  I told him she was going to be cremated.  ”Oh she is going to be burned.”  Well yes that is one way to look at is… hmmm want a slight bit less blunt approach.  Hubby always seems to know what to say and what to do.  So do my kitties it seems.  It is funny, as soon as I found out last night and started crying, my kitty Eirwen came up and was all over me.  She was trying to cheer me up.  When I kicked her off my chest she went and laid on the Hubby and just stared at me.  She waited till I was unsuspecting and then was snuggled up against me again.  I am luck to have so many wonderful people in my life.  Not sure if I will have to head up there soon for a service, or if it well be held later.  Time will tell I suppose.  For now I am just here, waiting for the dust to settle.

So today I am bringing you two of my franken polishes that I have created.  The first one Is called Pretties in Pink.  I am in love with this polish.  My hubby named it and it just screams girly and for valentines day.It is a pink that shimmers with slightly multicolored and sparkle.  Then you have the small and larger red hex glitters in it.  This is two coats of if on a plain nail wheel in the slight sunshine.  It covers really well I think.Next up we have another great polish in Sapphire Blue.   I made this in an attempt to get something close to a DS Glamour.  I ended up with a weak linear holo but a great holo like shimmer through out it.  It is a dense royal blue.  This shows two coats on a nail wheel.  The both pictures are in different types of light around the house.This is with very slight sunshine outside.  As soon as I got to take a picture the early morning sun hid behind clouds.  But again the holo would be slightly more pronounce but you can see it.Both of these can be found on my ETSY store along with others.  If you can think of a request let me know and I can see what I can do.  Have a wonderful Friday.